Lately I have been running crazy trying to do a lot of things. Some for myself, and a lot of others.
Now there are those who are truly worthy of that attention from me, like my sluts jenni, joanna and sammi.
Like my sub pro-session bob, who went out of his way yesterday to sent me a lovely floral arrangement with the nice note: See you Monday. Now those are lovely old fashioned manners, I truly adore.
Some of the younger Dommes I mentor to are more then worth the effort and time I have stuck into guiding them along the line. I don't regret it one bit and for some of them I will continue on.
But what about the teaching blogs that I have added on many different forums and websites? What about those? More times then not, they have not been given any gratitude. You have to see it the way it is. I take my time to do something good for the communities at large, and I don't regret that either. Yet, couldn't I have spend that time better elsewhere?
Belonging to several financial domination groups, forums, sites etc too is something I need to take a look at. Do I find good submissives from them, or do I just get drama, grief etc?
This week was spectacular to say the least. I was well loved, adored and worshipped the way I deserve from some, but where did they come from? Where did those who understood and appreciated that value of my teachings, care and training come from? So I sat down and took stock.
I looked over correspondences from many different groups, sites and forums, and I took stock. Some of those places have yielded nothing or very little. Those I am withdrawing from. Why, continue on giving when nothing comes of it. Not only am I wasting my time, but the time and space of others on those sites. They are not looking for what I have to offer. Let me give others the space they so richly deserve. I will simply vacate it to them.
Other sites have yielded more, and on those I will be more strongly represented. With other words it is time to prioritize my efforts and time to those who are deserving of it.
I am splitting my websites more and more apart as well. I made the mistake of listening to others advice and fell for the trap we all do. I let myself go away from my own path. So, since I am one of those who learn from mistakes, I looked, saw and did a U-turn.
Afterall, I am who I am. I can't be someone else, because it is not in me. Today was an upsetting day, with many twists and turns. I don't like those days, but they are a fact of life. Simply take them, learn from them and move on. Gratefully the day is not over yet, and I am hoping that it will get better soon.
A wonderful thought however is that my real time sessions are becoming much more frequent again, and I am enjoying them to the fullest. So perhaps that is where a lot of my energy should be focused.
My Art too and my Paid to write Articles have suffered due to my lack of energy given to them. That too must stop, so I am returning once again more to my creative outlets.
Today is Sunday, a day of reflection and thoughts. So far I have dismanteled 5 Profiles on various groups, forums and websites. I have taken down 15 of my own, since I simply didn't have the time to make them work for me. Now hurray, because my workload is easier.
If you wish to serve me, wish to find a place in my temple, then you may apply to me. Make yourself known, via a good and solid introduction. Send me a message to GoddessBellaDonna@cox.net or yahoo messenger: Goddess.BellaDonna@yahoo.com
If I see you as worthy, we go from there. Free wank material will not be supplied, but safe yourself the effort.
For now, I am wishing you all a wonderful day. May the Road rise up to meet your feet. Take care boys!
Your Goddess
